Feeling blue for real this time!

                                                                                I’m Catching Feelings For Him… Feelings
Whenever we happened to pass each other, I didn’t hesitate to grab his hand and let my finger slide all the way down his until the distance made us separate.
The secrecy made me feel like we’re having a forbidden affair. But isn’t it?
Of course our great relation  is more important to me than anything else, but I really can’t stop thinking about how things would be if it weren’t for ASY. would I have ever discovered these feelings? Or are these feelings from a heightened sense of need for male attention?